Meditation today was amazing. We watched a movie about a brain scientist that had a stroke. She lost her entire left brain. The talk is only 20mins, but it's amazing. She loses the part that makes her a separate individual and connects directly to the energy of the world. It's SOO Amazing!
[link] But our brains normally work as a combo of both hemispheres (granted, Left dominance in most case). Never the less, with what she explained about the differences between her thoughts and experience, it made me wonder how two could really blend.
What if.. just what if, the right brain is right *pun*: we are all pulling from this same expansive energy, we're all connected, EVERYTHING is connected by some energetic feeling. In each moment we are each a collective part of each others lives all across the world (universe?). What if we are not all separate people per-say, but separate energies. Separate but DISTINCT energies all massed into one huge powerhouse together feeding off of eacho ther and each contributing energy to the whole.
Here's the kicker for me though: What if the left brain is the "decider?" *not Bush*
What if our left brains, collectively, yet not connected like the energy, decide and distinguish the separate energies into some sort of understanding and feeling or emotion?
Example might help here..
Let's say I give and am a certain type of energy, say Navy Blue energy. McKayne gives off and is Burgundy energy. Ever since my energy became energy, I have experienced some form of Burgundy energy, but it's been brought in with all other energy colors in the world so I haven't thought anything of it, so to speak.
Then I meet McKayne, and I'm able to see the source of this energy and name it: McKayne. We hang out more and interact, and I begin to feed more on his energy source and him on mine. We're still receiving energy from everywhere, but I'm receiving more of his now.
Let's say my ex has a color energy too. While part of me wants to say black, we'll say she's got lime green energy. When we were together, we drew more and more off of each others energies. Our energies became used to a specific amount of her lime green energy.
Then we broke up.
I was devastated, because while it had to be done, I didn't know how I could live without that energy. It took a long time to gain that energy from other sources, and to create more of my own again. I think you see where this metaphor can go.
Some people fill the void in their life with an activity.
What if that void means no longer getting energy from someone, and thus filling it with energy found in their activity?
If everything has energy, then can we not derive happiness and energy and fulfillment from everywhere? Every rock and tree and person and wall and bed and sock?
If someone is introverted, does it mean that they are content with using much of the energy they create?
If someone is extroverted, does it mean they are open to all sources of energy and give their energy away?
If all energies are everywhere and our sources, does that mean that while it's harder to draw lots of energy from someone who is far away, we're still always connected to them and a part of them anyway?
Can we BE with someone, even though we're not touching?
If Air is energy too, and there is nothing of energy, then how can our eyes decipher anything? Or is it our left brain processing this energy into limits, density, and touchable shapes, and thus describing their touch by the energy given/taken?
*pant*
Ok.. maybe I'll write more later. For now, this song has been on my mind:
Sleeeeeeeeping by Billy Jonas
(Doesn't seem to be a youtube video, but I'll email the music to anyone who wants to hear)
When I was young I did not know what people meant when
they said so and so was 'sleeping together' – Because when
mom and dad were fast asleep I'd tiptoe in and gently creep
between, we'd be 'sleeping together' – I only knew between
the two, my dreams were better; – and all my fears
disappeared -- sleeping together
When we'd been dating for a week I finally kissed you on
the cheek and said we should try sleeping together
– You said "that sounds premature," I did my best to
reassure "I really mean just 'sleeping' together"
– You said "no tricks and don't be slick," you slept
in your jeans and your sweater – In our cocoon we l
ay like spoons -- sleeping together
Hush -- be still; feel the beating of my heart - Hush --
be still; this is where the music starts
Sleeping together
Sleeping together
Someday when we're old and gray, if looks and lust
have passed I pray we're sleeping together
– Now I lay me down to sleep I pray the Love will
keep us sleeping together
Our bodies lay like notes sustained -- we're music together
The warmest chord I've ever heard -- sleeping together
Sleeping together
Sleeping together
Sleeping together
I want to know
Depressed
Shame
rove' himself
Awestruck
Optimism
Hope
